hi dearest old blog.
long time no see.
it's just that there hasnt been a time that i really felt a need to come here for quite a while now.
no not that i hv any other places to talk about how i really feel.
but because i've conformed to living a rather superficial life.
because living & taking things on the surface is much better than letting yourself be vulnerable with all the connections.
so anyway im back here today.
with 4 upcoming tests.
wondering why in the hell people actually treat me like this.
i just keep giving in & giving in to my friends.
but really, it's obvious that i don't usually get the same treatment back.
it's stupid. & i hate it. & i dont know why i even do it anymore. but i do.
but of course everyone thinks more for themselves.
ok dearest. even if i seem like i have all the time in the world.
doesnt mean i do.
doesnt mean that i have so much time for everything.
just because youre busy with work? doesnt give you the right to tell me to do things.
i'm just really tired from all these interactions dont you get it.
i have things on my hands too. not that im always at your disposal.
and really, thanks. just because i always seem like i dont hv to do my work, so when you do, it's natural that i should take on any responsibility?
i dont understand why the hell i even live my life like this.
i need to just grow up and move on.
seriously. im so sick and tired of all these. do you think i want my phone to die on me every time im out?
and cant u even accept that im sick, oh but it's not as much an issue as ur work.
fuck it really. im so sick and tired of everyone being so full of themselves.
it's really enough.
plus i dont know how in the world you got the idea that it's ok to throw your temper at someone who always agrees to attend stuff just to support your ass & you NEVER EVER reciprocate it.
it's not that im keeping counts, but really? it's because im always so ok about all these right?
what the fuck where did the bitch in me disappear to really?
and fuck it when everyone comes late it's just fucking annoying and rude ok.
please hv some basic courtesy. taking the public transport is alr such a tiresome chore & i still hv to sit around and wait like an idiot.
ok sorry dearest old blog those were some bottled up emotions i just had to let go off.
but seriously, from now on.
i hope none of you expects anything from me ever again.
because just like how u treat me. im going to do the same.
taking everything with a pinch of salt. im not going to be so understanding, so easy-going, always giving in to u guys.
really. im done with living like that.
i dont even know since when i changed into that kind of person. it might hv been a good thing, except that people are suckers who take advantage of each other.
because i honestly cant take this anymore.